salty and sweet

I had made up my mind to not exercise today because I had a cavity filled this morning & I've heard before that bouncing around or straining too much will cause it to throb and hurt... THAT IS, until I was making chocolate & almond covered strawberries for my wonderful guy and, afterwards, found myself dumping half a cup of slivered almonds into the leftover melted chocolate and eating it with a fork.

Can we say pre-menstrual? I think so. I. Think. So. And phooey on those who say that PMS is not a valid excuse for this kind of outrageous behavior. BECAUSE IT IS A PERFECTLY PERFECT EXCUSE BLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Anyways. Needless to say, I ended up exercising. It was too dark to go for a run outside so it was Jillian Michaels to the rescue. I have a newfound appreciation/obsession with Netflix ever since I discovered two things: the instant watch thingy with the xbox thingy, and the exercise/fitness genre.. namely Jillian Michaels. I really like her and her goofy antics.. and her workouts are extremely effective. I even like the cheesy speech at the end of her videos: "If you tell yourself you can, then you will." So much truth. Haa :) Srsly.

I had a small eye opening moment today. I was with my mom & bride-to-be sister at one of my mom's friend's houses looking at her fancy schmancy serving dishes for possible use at the wedding. Of course, as it always does, the object of my unemployment came up. "So have you found a job yet?" I said no, that I had signed up to sub at the high school just in case nothing came open. I then proceeded to say that I'd rather have a "grown up job," since my resume boasts mostly random workstudy-ish positions and summer camp jobs that make me look like a teenager. Mom's friend said, "Well at least you have a resume."

Hm. It was brushed off in the moment of saying bye and have a good day blah blah... but I got to thinking about it later. This lady, Mom's friend, works with special needs kids at her job. Most of her students will not go on to attend college or university or maybe even get out of this small town. They very likely might not get the opportunity to have summer camp counseling jobs or college work study jobs on their resumes. When I realized how selfish I had been acting lately (i.e.: I'm too good to be a substitute teacher, I have a degree now.. I want a job I can wear heels to and be respected and successful in..), I was very humbled. I have made it further than a lot of people will even get the chance to. So what if my first job out of college was at a snow cone stand for a couple of months, or if my next gig will be a day-to-day subbing job with high schoolers. I am blessed beyond measure.

Nothing like a good healthy slice of humble pie. If only I hadn't dumped all those almonds into that chocolate..... naw. It was hella good.